another day,another week...dont want to have another year like this!

so much to do so much in pain,yes im still in pain,but still i can laugh i can still smile but deep inside of me i still cry...but nobody knows it except me and my blog,but someday people will find out,they will know why,they will know what is the cause of these unbearable pain. No,im not scarred,im still bleeding,running out of blood,can anyone stop it,can anyone cure me...me myself dont know if there is still a way to make me feel healthy again,make me come back again to my original form...All i know is that the word Jinx just takes its human form into ME! GOSH why is this happening to me? is this a Karma? the more i did something nice,the more it brings me bad luck...or am i wrong? im s confuse,my mind is out,aching,vanishing and whats worse is i cant think of a specific plan anymore...from the soft white clouds that i usually embrace,im falling to the dark abyss of depression and sadness... GOD MAY U HEAR WHAT MY HEART IS LONGING!!!